Really bad nervous breakdown last night.. I just couldn't help it.. I feel so vulnerable.. Like I'm a useless person, like a stupid and slow student.. I've never been so scared for life, my future.. This just sucks big time, you know that feeling that you don't know whether you've done enough to finally get what you want.. This time round, I've definitely put in a whole lot more effort..

But is it enough? I have this feeling that it's not.. I don't want it to be a repeat of the other school exams where I've tried real hard but it doesn't show in exams.. No, please not for A levels! I don't wanna come back for a third, neither do I want to not have anywhere to go.. What if that happens? I can't take this.. I can't take the stress, it's already too much for me.. Please I just want this to be over

Can't remember the last time I cried so hard for feeling vulnerable