So apparently, I'm currently not myself.. I'm not talking much, I dont make my presence in school much of a significance since people no longer realise that I'm back in school after taking just one day of MC.. And I'm not participating as actively in History as I always do..

Honestly, I dont know what's wrong with me.. Actually, I dont even see what's there to be wrong about.. When I'm noisy, you tell me that I'm being too annoying and thus, in whatever way it is that you use, you tell me to shut up.. Then, when I go all quite, you think something is wrong.. What is it that people want? I honestly have got no idea.. Really.. Matthew Lim, my history teacher said "Liyana, you're awfully quite today" in the middle of lecture.. What was I supposed to do? Engage in small talk and not pay any attention to you?

Then a friend asked me whether things were cool between us, whether I was angry at her for anything at all.. I mean, huh? I dont get it.. Did anything happen between us that I probably am not aware of? And which blog post was she referring to? I dont know.. But whatever it is, things are a little awkward now the way I see it.. I dont know.. There's just this very weird vibe.. Maybe I'm being just a little paranoid.. I have got no idea what's happening around school anymore.. I really dont..

And Hanan, he just smsed me saying that he thinks that we're drifting apart in a way, that I'm "caring and loving for him as a friend much less now".. I dont know how he came to that conclusion but that dude will always be my number 1 bestest best friend in the entire universe mainly cos I practically grew up with him.. We've been friends for nearly a decade now, I'm not gonna throw that away! He thinks that he's not been a good best friend to me cos it's always him who'd share his problems.. So ok, yeah I hardly tell him about my problems.. Things is, I've never noticed this until he pointed it out to me just an hour ago..

So fine maybe I admit that I tend to keep stuffs to myself and that I am trying to play a lower profile than before now noting that some have voiced out their opinion about my personality whatever shit that they were referring to.. I'm not saying they're right though.. I just dont wanna get in their way anymore, you know? So I just stick to the people that I'm most comfortable with, just because.. I dont know what people want from me.. I dont know how they expect me to behave..