sadly, I myself am confused
Saturday, December 26, 2009;


Had a great day today, to make up for yesterday's sham..

Met up with Ting at 12 at Tanah Merah before making our way to Changi Airport.. Before deciding properly what's for lunch, stopped bu KidzTime to colour some stuffs.. Heh.. Had lotsa fun.. Well at least I did.. Haha!! Got this really NICE xmas present from Ting.. Heh.. THANKS!!

Yeap so settled down at some random spot down at T3.. DAMN cold but ok lah.. Toilet quite near.. Heh.. Anyhoos.. Had a great talk again as usual..

I mean, I really don't know.. It's not as if I'm totally ok with your girlfriend.. But I just don't know why I can stand it whenever you ask me for help concerning your relationship with her.. Am I interfering too much? She'd definitely wanna kill you and me if she found out that we were still contacting.. Well it IS fine for me and you.. Maybe not for her.. I don't know.. Never been in her shoes.. Kay I have been but that was sorta, not fully in her shoes.. So what? I tell you now that I'm not gonna continue helping you? Leave it as it is, pretend I'm not feeling anyting and continue helping you? I don't know lah kambing.. I really don't..

Then the what ifs.. Could it have possibly worked out? I mean, the reason why we drifted was because we're in very different tertiary worlds.. Or at least that's what I think.. You can't blame me for thinking that way, you changed; your words about me being where I'm at hurts.. Maybe I changed to since I entered where I'm at now.. I don't know kay I don't know.. I thought I'd already given up thinking of the what ifs.. Well obviously I'm wrong.. I'm sorry babe.. URGH!! As the 28th is coming nearer nearer, I don't know what to think anymore..

One thing still lingers in my mind..
Will I ever get over you? I don't know..

"And though there are times when I hate you cos I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day"- Beyonce