God knows..
Friday, October 30, 2009;


Caught My sister's Keeper just now..

Cried like hell in the cinema alongside Rauhdah and Esther.. Worst of all, I was the first to start crying.. And I cried the most..

Ignoring that fact, I thought the movie was great and everybody should watch it (but a box of tissues must be present).. Well, it made me think about life.. Like the story, you can be cured of an illness one time but god knows when the illness would strike back and just rob life from you.. Would I be strong enough to face the loss of a loved one when I'm capable of helping? Or, if I put myself in Kate's shoes, would I willingly face death though I could try other alternatives to stay alive? Biggest question of all, if I were to face death right now, what is it that I have left for the people who've known me? Impression wise I mean..

Obviously, I am far from the ideal person that I had wanted to be especially with the incessant spurting of vulgarities that I have been up to especially in recent times.. I can't help it.. Ok.. Scrap that, I could have, but I chose not to.. So.. It is obvious that I have displeased many.. In fact, I know that I've been quite of a bitch to some.. So you know, if the angel of death were to knock on your door one day and asks for me, I won't be too surprised if some chooses to hand me over rather than to help hide me.. I won't blame you.. Cos I know, and I'm fully aware of my flaws..

Whatever it is, dear god, please let me live a long life, long enough that I can make sure that I've apologised to every single person that I've sinned to..